That’s what SOS stands for, if you are one of us I’m sorry.  My brother Alex took his life September 26, 2012  seems like yesterday you never really get over it. Who would ever think he would take a 357 magnum revolver and put it to his head, then pull the trigger.  Not me, I knew he had some Bi-Polar issues but always thought he was superman and could recover. IF YOU ARE HAVING SUICIDAL THOUGHTS OR HAVING A CRISIS CALL 988 THERE IS HELP AVAILABLE!

September 25th My mom called me and said Alex has left and so has his gun, I said he is just of on some wild adventure. So when he didn’t show the next day with a wild story it hit me we need to find him. So the next morning we reported a missing person to the Police.

My youngest brother “Nick” and I set out to to find him along with the search and rescue team. After searching all day I heard 6 gun shots so we headed back to the sound. It was within 150 yards of the house and we saw the Lexington County Medical officer’s truck with several county cars. I said to my brother this is not good, talked to the deputies and they said we’ll be down in a minute to talk to you.

At this point denial is racing thru and I’m like no he didn’t. But yes he did, is it because I didn’t care? Hell yes I cared, didn’t I see the signs, no but they were there. As a survivor you get to live the rest of your life with these thoughts.

My brother you are not forgotten September 17, 1966 – September 26, 2012. Rest in peace. I am unqualified to give advise to any one considering suicide other than please don’t do it! Find Jesus, he forgives.